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Hey Toby!! Let me know when we can talk ok?? You dont have to call if you don't wanna

Hello Maya. I hope you're all right.
I'd like to text, if it's all right with you.
What is it specifically you'd like to talk about?
Something you may have heard on the news somewhere, perhaps?

Who's the psychic one here, huh?

[She can't resist teasing.]

back home I'm a defense attorney's assistant
So I just wanted to ask some stuff if that's okay??

The news isn't super great at telling the story

[Not that she'd know it, but he still chuckled about her teasing.]

The news here makes about everyone psychic.
But especially in regards to anything about imPorts.
With our celebrity status, word is always bound to get out.
Anyway, you've got questions. Hopefully I've got answers.
I don't mind you asking. I'll do my best to be level with you.
Because you're right about the news, it doesn't have the whole of what happened.

welllll can you tell me what YOU think happened? the news is never too good on the whole details thing so it's hard to be like 'hey did you do this and this!!!'

so, storytime, maybe?

[The following is a series of texts...]

Sure, I can. Though I think it's quite a long story.
Sorry, by the way; I think you'll be getting a full barrage of messages.

Everything goes back to before I first arrived here.
After being dead for thirty years, I was suddenly alive again.
So much had changed, and I was trying to figure out how I'd returned.
The way that I'd died, I'd never expected to come back.
It was a confusing couple days before I arrived here, out of the blue.

I don't know that there's anyone who arrives here expecting to see other people from their world.
But I certainly hadn't expected it, and as a vampire, I need to feed.
Unfortunately, I have very specific dietary restrictions.
Namely that what the government provides, such as blood bags or synthetics and so on, doesn't sustain me.

On the first day I arrived, I drank from a native and sired him.
Not because I meant to sire him, but because that's what my bite seems to do.
That, and because I needed to feed. I was already in a weakened state.
Naturally, I hadn't quite thought about the consequences.
And so for the first month, as I was struggling to stave off the hunger, I found out about Dorian Gray being here.
If you recall the boyfriend I'd been searching for on your first broadcast?
Yeah, him. I believe you met us both at the zoo maybe a week afterward.

It's easy to think, "Well, why didn't you just feed on him?"
After all, Dorian never changes, never dies.
All his sins and injuries are transferred to a portrait.
Sounds like a godsend if anyone's ever heard of any.
But there were a lot of personal things at play.
Feelings, mainly. Though trust is another.
Put simply, I avoided him and tried to handle my new life here on my own.
By the time we got back together, I'd already sired three more natives.
But afterward, I fed only on Dorian.

Back in July, someone had been spreading terrible rumours and anti-imPort propaganda during the swear-in.
It was said that Kanaya Maryam, another vampire, had been raising an army of the undead.
When in fact, she had been taking the native vampires I'd sired into her care.
I don't know exactly what happened, but Sabriel confronted me after the swear-in.
She used her power, some kind of magic, to bind me.
It prevents me from attacking or feeding on natives, and makes it so I can't feed from imPorts without clear and informed consent.
Since the July, I've fed only from two imPorts. Dorian and one other.

A lot has happened since then.
I was affected by fear gas at the August swear-in.
Then I sought psychiatric help in September, when my boyfriend got caught in a hostage situation.
At that time, a picture of my boyfriend making out with someone else spread on the internet, so I thought he was cheating on me.
I left home after that, only to discover I was wrong about him cheating.
So I tried to get in touch with him via your show, but he was working.
No one talked to him about my calling in. Still, thanks for helping anyway.
I finally was able to get in touch with him and decided to go back.
Though I texted the person I was staying with, and that made him pretty angry.
He killed me on the night of the full moon in October.
When he confessed to it in November, he then outed me as a vampire.
It took some time, but then we made up.
However, people had a whole lot to say about my vampirism, about what I'd done to those natives.
Guess they got it to my head that there's no other way to atone for what I've done to the natives.
Doesn't matter that I've always been this way or that I have to feed a certain way.
I ruined those natives' lives, I changed them into the very thing I never asked to be.
There was a time I didn't have to be this way—I escaped through death.
But now I'm alive again, and in a new place at that.
I've had, what, MONTHS to adjust to things here. I haven't been good enough at that, I guess.
How many others said I've been wallowing in self-pity instead of trying to make things up to those natives?
I started thinking that maybe they're right.
Anyway, I guess that's my side of the story.
Any other questions?

um

Wow

Yeah I have questions but whoa

I'm so sorry all that happened

Thanks. I do appreciate the sympathy.
So, what questions did you have in mind?

it's kinda tricky cos you actually kinda answered a lot of them!!! and I mean, I guess you're really taking this seriously, huh?

You didn't -want- to hurt anyone, right?

That's part of why I'd rather get the whole story out at once.
It tends to save some trouble. And you're right, I'm taking this all very seriously.
Because I didn't want to hurt anyone, no. But there's little I could do about my dietary restrictions.
If I could avoid it, and the trouble that comes with it, I certainly would.

normally id' be like WHOA THAT'S A LOT YOU SHOULD BE IN JAIL but y'know

stuff works way different here??

So I guess, I'm just glad you're being good about it!!! and trying to fix stuff. So if you want help trying to fix it, I'll help you any way I can, okay?

I really appreciate it, Maya. Thanks for being so understanding about all of this.
I'm so used to hiding the whole thing about being a vampire, and that carried over here as well.
Until word got out, of course. Or sometimes, imPorts have had other ways of finding out.
And then they don't really wait up for my side of the story.
At any rate, it's probably better I turned myself in.

Edited 2016-01-28 13:58 (UTC)

Wellllllllll like I said, my boss was a defense lawyer.

turns out, people have all kinds of reasons why they do things. It doesn't make them right or anything, but that doesn't mean those reasons don't mean anything at all

i hope things work out

So, if your boss was a defence lawyer, what did you do?
I mean, were you some sort of intern or a clerk perhaps?
Anyway, I understand. And think it's important to place some value on one's reasons or motivations.
Moreover, this is a place with so many different types of people.
Surely there are others among the imPorts facing similar plights and fearing what discovery might mean for them.
At any rate, I hope things work out not only for myself, but others as well.

I helped him investigate and with his defenses!! so I was always at the defense bench with him

but yeah I think that's true! I noticed that, lately... if everything worked the way my world did i could judge people like that, you know? but it doesn't. I mean, we don't even have vampires where I'm from. Like, real ones.

I think if you work hard you can make something better out of this!! I believe in you!

Oh, I see!
I guess that also explains why it was so weird for you doing the show when you first arrived.
Are you still doing it, Millennial Mysticism?
No vampires in your world, wow. Are there any kinds of supernatural beings there?
Also, thank you. You've been really helpful since we first met, even if Dorian hadn't heard the message.

uh

actually um.......... i'm also a spirit medium so it wasn't all THAT weird it's just, you know. Not that kind of psychic.

A spirit medium! I would never have guessed.
Is that something you try to keep secret, or do you not mind others knowing about it?
I'd understand not really telling others since people have a way of questioning the validity of spirit mediums.
That's probably a universal constant.

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